Friday, October 22, 2010

Epiphany

 It has taken me 24 years to realize the difference between being emotional and being sensitive. Emotional people make decisions based off of feeling,sensitive people make decisions based of of how it will make other people feel. I know what you are thinking....both of those statements technically are saying "based off  of feeling" whether its ones own feelings or whether its the others feelings.(confusing right?)lemme try to clarify with only one cup of coffee in me..(brains still kinda cloudy)
Scenario: mr. emotional had something bad happen to him...nothing harmful but something that put him in an absolute rage. When it came time for mr. Emotional's kids first day of first grade, still hotheaded, he angrly gets the kid ready for school. Of course the kids slow getting ready for school, mr emotional fixes things by throwing on whatever clothes he sees the child has...
Off he goes to school, mismatch clothes,no packpack and hair thats a mess....mr emotional is just happy that the first day of school bullshits over with...now he can chill.
2nd scenario: mr. Sensitive had the same exact thing happen to him, except he took the event that made emotional furious  and he locked it away internally. With a cool head he gets the child ready for school, making sure lil dude has it all, matching socks,clothes,neat haircut and of course a backpack..
Well....do you see it?
Conclusion: mr. sensitive was most likely as angry as emotional when the news happened but how could he diffuse the anger so quickly upon getting the news? You see its not that sensitive people do not care as much..its just that when it came time for sensitive to get his child ready, all he could focus on was making his son look as neat and clean as possible. Reason being...... sensitive has the ability to be inside anothers ones thoughts. Mr sensitive could picture the feeling of showing up to school looking like a mess with no backpack,crummy clothes and a bad hairdoo.(once again your prolly thinking"its first grade..who is worried about appearance at that age") well this was just an example, but whose to say that it wouldnt happen again later in life when the child did begin to care about his apperance and how he looks to the outside world....right?
Really diddnt plan on getting so deep so early in the morning but today was the day that i found out im the sensitive one.....fa real
Cant count how many times i spend my days wondering how others feel and not myself.
Blessing or sin? Who knows

~mae@work~ originally typed at 8:43 am

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